Blogging a meme, 30 days, 30 questions, 30 truths you have to kind of figure out for yourself. I'm trying not to look ahead in the days and pre-plan my answers, just going to blog them as they come.
http://singedwingangel.blogspot.com/p/30-days-of-truth.html
Anyway,
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself
Uhh this one is hard to answer because I'm pretty sure it's sad and not what they're asking for if I say "Everything"
I'm not terribly fond of myself, I don't like how I talk, I don't like that I'm dumb, I don't like that I'm short, fat, loud, nerdy.
In fact I'd wager to say I hate every single trait I have. Even the things about myself I kind of like, I don't really because they're not GOOD enough, just some half assed ability that I've never bothered to nourish to full potential... And I hate that too.
It's one of the things that makes me take things people say to me so personally, or at least what they say when they say something mean. Because when someone says something mean it validates my hate but really you're almost wasting your breath trying to say something nice because really, I won't believe you anyway.
No, no I'm not looking for some pitying statements or fishing for a compliment, in fact if I could turn off comments for this I would... (screw you facebook aaaggghh)
It's just a statement of facts, I hate myself, I've probably always hated myself and its taken me a long time to just be okay with the fact that I do, and partially get over it and become even moderately okay with being myself.
I might not ever like anything about me, but I'm kind of stuck with myself so I should at least get used to it.
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